Laziness, My Greatest Motivator

-Nick
I do not like hard work. It is much easier for me to sit around and watch the days go by, doing my own thing, than to get out there and make a difference.  I would say this is a pretty common trait, and most people would tend to agree this is not a good trait to have.  I disagree.  What is the most powerful form of instinctual drive? Fear.  What gives us that extra boost of adrenaline?  What makes us be able to run faster than we ever thought we could?  what drives us to stay up night after night working on a project?   Fear of losing.  Whether it be your own life, or another’s life, or respect, fear of losing is an instinct engrained deeply into our minds.  My greatest fear?  going through the daily motions of life until I die.  I see myself walking to school, figuring out my major, going home and chatting with my friends.  These are all good things.  In reality, however, they are just more preparation.  More getting ready to "start my life". Often times I feel as if I could spend my entire lifetime preparing to start my life.  That fear is what drives me today.  It drives me to make decisions, take risks, and be willing to fail.  It sounds strange, but the only way I persist through fear is fear of greater loss.  My fear of rejection is trumped by the fear of losing an opportunity.  Every bold move I make is based off of fear.  My laziness is my greatest fear.  I am so frightened by the thought of never being able to make a difference, everything else pails in comparison.  I will not be deterred, I will not be stopped, because I am afraid.  Fear is not a curse, it's a gift.  Use it.

I am very interested to know your own thoughts on this.  I made a lot of assumptions in this post and am curious if anyone agrees, or if I am just crazy.